Moon: oh, it's very full and beautiful.
What Made Me Smile: a friend saying I had great hair, under the stage lights.
Song In My Head: Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat - Lucky
I am watching Gossip Girl, so this is a warning that this may be a disconnected entry. Chuck Bass is on screen.
I wanted to write something of consequence tonight, as it's the full moon, and it was a fairly good day.
School can be pretty awkward sometimes, though. I several friends from very different backgrounds. I have athiest friends, agnostic friends, mormon, catholic, jewish.
And we all get along, (with the exception of one asshole that I can not stand. I don't hate anyone...but him....) so it doesn't bother me. But now, as more people know about my religion, I think about it more. I feel more exposed. And I don't want to loose some friends that I have, just because of what I believe in and practice. Obviously, if I was following a more mainstream path, it wouldn't be as difficult.
But because we are so left-field, it's different. What happens when close friends just leave? What happens when I'm not comfortable having certain discussions because of what that discussion could lead to? What happens when I want to hit certain people for being arrogant pricks?
I'm still learning, I'm still growing, and I'm still learning to accept the fact that I may never be perfectly blended in society...but I can be perfectly blended in myself and with the world around me.
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Hi Ellen,
ReplyDeleteI once read something wise, I can't remember the exact words now, but it went something like "those who matter don't mind, and those that mind don't matter." I think it means basically that you find out who your real friends are, those who really like and care about you, are those that will stick around, despite your beliefs. People come and go in your life, people are there for a reason, a season or a lifetime. They each have their own purpose, and it's best to remember the good times, and the lessons learnt, and try not to mourn them too much when they leave. Easier said than done, I know!
As for 'coming out of the broom closet' and letting others know about your beliefs, especially if they're wiccan/pagan, is often difficult, and sometimes best not to reveal in workplaces or at school. Especially when others believe the Pagan/Wiccan craft is wrong, evil, or that were performing blood sacrifices every full moon! lol. Sometimes it's best to only let close friends know. The choice is yours, I know there are some who keep it secret (like I do), and others who openly tell people at work.
Good Luck, and I hope everything works out for you!
Angela :)