Lady of the Cemetery.

Moon:
What Made Me Smile: my friend, Cheyenne, who is already up in Boston. I miss her.
Song In My Head: The Friday Night Boys - Sorry I Stole Your Gurl

I had such an experience the other night.

Two friends and I went to the mall, just to be together since we're all going off to college and everything, and on our way home we went to this cemetery. It's supposedly haunted by this poor woman who drowned in a nearby swamp while going out to look for her husband in a snow storm in 1800. She is still buried in the cemetery, but her headstone was moved to discourage grave robbers. I had been once before, but hadn't gone very far in. Her presence is so palpable it can scare someone right off. But the three of us went in. And because no one was around we just talked to her. We told her we didn't want to do anything bad, that we just wanted to visit. We talked about her in kind ways, we told her how we hoped she would find her way, to cross over somehow. It was freezing. During the day, it was probably 75 degrees, and when we were there, it felt about 55. And then each of us had a brief chill, with no wind. It was like she was hugging us. And after that, any nerves or fears we had about the place were gone. We left at peace, and we felt very safe.

It was a truly touching experience. So many people go up there to try and record her on tape, to bother her for their own gain. I suppose it was nice for her to see some people who just wanted to talk to her. So now we plan on going back when we're all together again, bringing flowers and candles and just saying 'hello' to our new friend. 

I'll keep you all updated on my move to college, in Boston. It's in 6 days!

Blessings, 

Ellen

Ten Things I Can't Wait to Do In College: Pagan Edition

Moon: First Quarter; Scorpio
What Made Me Smile: The fact that my best friend gave me kraft microwave stuffing before leaving me to go to school.
Song In My Head: The Smiths - How Soon Is Now

I have about 11 days until I leave Connecticut to go to Emerson College to study Writing, Literature and Publishing. There is so many things I want to do and see, and I'm so excited. Here are ten of the most important, in no order, that have a little to do with religion.

1. Get my tattoo! When I hit Boston, and as soon as a friend of mine turns 18 (she's going to BU) we're going together to get our first tattoos. NOT matching, obviously, ugh. I have a few in mind. Like the Hungarian word for apple on the inside of my left wrist. "Alma". (It's a loooong story. Maybe I'll blog it sometime). Or, '142' on the inside of my left calf. or "Jennie" on the right side of my mid-back (my middle name, and my grandmother's first name. She passed of ovarian cancer 5 months before I was born). Still deciding exactly what it will be. 

2. Go for a run through the Common. My campus is literally on the common, my dorm is right across the street. So maybe I'll get some exercise that way.

3. Hitching a ride to Salem, MA for Samhain! I love Salem so much and I've always wanted to be there for Samhain, or any sabbat for that matter!

4. Going to see one of my favorite bands in October, This Providence. (Okay, not so Pagan. Aren't I allowed one?)

5. Hopefully finding someone who shares the religion! Someone I can talk to, learn with, laugh with. Someone who will understand when my chakras are out of whack and will help me fix it. 

6. Experiencing the wheel of the year in a completely different place than I'm used to. It'll be a trip! But I'm excited to see how the world works outside of my little hometown.

7. Going to a gathering to dance under the full moon. 

8. Being someplace where nobody knows me. I can finally reinvent myself and be the girl I want to be in the skin I want to be in. Have the beliefs I want to with no hiding at all. HERE I AM WORLD. I'm Wiccan, I practice Witchcraft and I'm DAMN PROUD. 

9. Having new inspiration for my writing. I think part of my writers block problem is the fact that I have the same old stale atmosphere. Boston will help in that way. Something new!

10. Carrying on with my life. Growing, shaping, forming. Moving on. 

and you? 

Blessings,

Ellen

Growth: Magickal, Spiritual, Mundane, Physical.

What Made Me Smile: Allan Hyde being just oh, so cuddly on True Blood.
Song In My Head: Miley Cyrus, Demi Lovato, Selena Gomez & The Jonas Brothers - Send It On

(SUCH A RANDOM SONG, I KNOW!)

As I continue on my way to beginning college, my life has been changing. There have been small, subtle changes that don't really affect my day-to-day living. There have been moderate changes that I am glad to make. There have also been changes in my personal philosophies that I am almost shocked to be making, and new ways of thinking that keep me excited about the future. It is the last category that I have noticed most recently.

When I'm talking with my best friend, suddenly I feel as if we don't have certain things in common anymore. Where we used to fool around saying we were going to marry this person, or that person...I say, well who knows what the future holds? And she doesn't understand. She, as a person, is afraid of change. I know this. But I've learned to embrace it, because I know that change is inevitable, and it's beautiful. I know she wants to keep the fun, fantastical inside jokes from high school, because it is all fun. But I'm also being serious. I know life isn't always about being serious, I'm such a goofball! But I'm afraid for her sometimes because she doesn't accept change. I feel sorry that she doesn't accept change.

I, for many year now, have planned on saving sex for marriage. I know that isn't how many Wiccans live, by any stretch! So it's not religious, obviously. It's more personal. And I have a promise ring that says "true love waits", because I believe it does. (I call it a promise ring rather than a purity ring. "Purity" ring makes it sound as if sex is dirty and makes someone impure. And we all know that isn't true, and that it's a beautiful part of human life.) But recently, I've been thinking on what it means to me. And I still do plan to wait until marriage. But at the same time, if I fall head-over-heels in love sometime during college and I trust my significant other completely and I feel comfortable taking that step, I just might. The point, is that I have decided to live a little more care-free. A little more spontaneous. By leaving a little bit of the future to fate, or to the Divine, life becomes a little more interesting! It's all a beautiful dance in this life. I am very happy to be living it. And I am accepting change. I am happy to leave a little something to chance. 

For once in my life, I feel safer free falling that being tied down.

Blessings,

Ellen